i love scandals!

Saturday, November 01, 2003

haha..i finally shaved my hairRRRR!!

wooohoo....

zenna boxed the green apple at 1:27:00 AM

Friday, October 31, 2003

*to read the chinese, right click, encoding, unicode,auto-select (ticked).

yi ge ren shen huo.

一個人生活

葉子在窗外輕搖動人行道沒有行人走過

鏡子里的我很不像我自從你離開了

我變得很軟弱你的影子在每一個角落

好像是在提醒著我少了你的陪伴我現在有多寂寞

我想我可以習慣一個人生活我想我可以假裝不曾愛過

冰的夜里讓眼淚溫熱我

感覺如果要走誰能說no

我想我可以習慣一個人生活在記憶里面擦去你的承諾

愛你怎么會是這個結果

愛情是個夢而我睡過頭

zenna boxed the green apple at 12:13:00 PM

im not supposed to bother anymore.

im not supposed to think bout you.

i dont want to think about you.

but i cant help it.

i hate being alone.

being alone means having thoughts about you, about the times we spent together

and it always never fails to make my heart ache.

loving you i guess, have made me a stronger person. and a little crazier.

there are times that im capable resisting and there are times when i just break down. --- uncontrollerably.

from day one when i decided to start loving you, i always told myself that i'll be able to pull myself up when the worse was to happen..

haha.. i never thought it'll be so difficult.

everytime i take a step away,

i end up running back.

tell me how sucky that is.

zenna boxed the green apple at 10:50:00 AM

sighs.. my life's messed up.

i dont know how im feeling...

im confused..

ive got no money..

ive got no brains...

ive got no willpower..

ive got no idea what im doing.

and i cant have what i really want.

this so difficult.

but i thank God for my great friends. :)

zenna boxed the green apple at 10:36:00 AM

talked to maisy on icq last night.. she's found a girLfriend already.

im happy for her.. it means that she has someone that she can take care of and keep

her company... haha.. so it means no more talking on the phone till the wee hours in

the morning.. haha.. but its okae.. its for a good cause...she has a

girlfriend..

zenna boxed the green apple at 10:27:00 AM

lemon tree
>>>>

I'm sitting here in the boring room
It's just another rainy Sunday afternoon
I'm wasting my time
I got nothing to do
I'm hanging around
I'm waiting for you
But nothing ever happens and I wonder

I'm driving around in my car
I'm driving too fast
I'm driving too far
I'd like to change my point of view
I feel so lonely
I'm waiting for you
But nothing ever happens and I wonder

I wonder how
I wonder why
Yesterday you told me 'bout the blue blue sky
And all that I can see is just a yellow lemon-tree
I'm turning my head up and down
I'm turning turning turning turning turning around
And all that I can see is just another lemon-tree

I'm sitting here
I miss the power
I'd like to go out taking a shower
But there's a heavy cloud inside my head
I feel so tired
Put myself into bed
Well, nothing ever happens and I wonder
Isolation is not good for me
Isolation I don't want to sit on the lemon-tree

I'm steppin' around in the desert of joy
Baby anyhow I'll get another toy
And everything will happen and you wonder

I wonder how
I wonder why
Yesterday you told me 'bout the blue blue sky
And all that I can see is just another lemon-tree
I'm turning my head up and down
I'm turning turning turning turning turning around
And all that I can see is just a yellow lemon-tree
And I wonder, wonder

zenna boxed the green apple at 1:28:00 AM

Thursday, October 30, 2003

TO:

ZPQ...

aiyoh-yoh...

its not you that im talking about...i dont wanna hate you.. the world would be a better place if i had one less person to hate... :) i love you too much to hate you..

dont be silly..

erm.. i was gonna return ur message.. but u were offline already... yup...

im sorry.. but i WAS REALLY NOT TALKING ABOUT YOU.. yup... u're being silly...

the list of 42 things that i said reminded me of you was meant for you... and the "stuck" lyrics too..

the others were not meant for you.. it was meant for HER.. yup..

that silly bitch... yes.. it was meant for her..

Love,
Zenna.

zenna boxed the green apple at 2:45:00 AM

met karen after a long long time...

had coffee with her first before meeting up with jillene, mel and su an at 85...

its funny.. so many pple having love love problems... that poor girL...

i TotALLY know what shes going through... haha.. and i know how to advice her... but i cant seem to be helping myself... wahaha...

im proud of myself today actually... ive been a good girl... ive been trying hard...

keep it up babe... im sure im able to do it...

zenna boxed the green apple at 12:26:00 AM

Wednesday, October 29, 2003

cant believe you're capable of doing things like that...

if u're not doing watever i thnk u're doing..

you should come up to me and tell me.

you're always running away from facts.. you rather keep everything to yourself than to tell others...

what the hell is wrong with you?? its better to let it out.. u not only help yourself to feel better.. you help me feel better too...

stop letting me THINK WATEVER I WANNA THINK... stop that...

TELL ME WHATS GOING ON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i dont hate you.

i hate the things you do to me.

zenna boxed the green apple at 10:39:00 AM

im so lazy to blog... but i'll blog anyway...

just came home frm 85 with dae, jillene and dorothy... yup..

it was nice lar.. sitting around ..looking like an andRO... haha....*nudge*nudge* wahahha... so funny..

i look andro??? damn... :)

haha...

i feel like drinking beer... i think im becoming alcoholic... then slowly, i'll become a drunkard... hahaa.... then i'll start smoking... and die of lung cancer....

Dear asshole,

ive decided... im gonna kill you the next time i see you...

you owe me.

either that or im gonna put a curse on you like what you did.. wahahaha *EVIL laughTER*...

you dont fucking hell deserve every effort that im putting in... you SUCK.

you think??

YOU ARE ONE HELL OF AN ASS..

Lots of love.. hugs and kisses,
Zenna

zenna boxed the green apple at 1:21:00 AM

Tuesday, October 28, 2003

STUCK

You've got me hanging on a string
Why you make me cry?
I tried to give you everything
But you just gave it up

I ain't tripping
I'm just missin you
You know what I'm saying,
You know what I mean

Every now and then
When I'm all alone
I've been wishing you would call me on the tele.phone
Say you want me back but you never do I feel like such a fool
There's nothing I can do
I'm such a fool
for you

I can't take it
What am I waiting for
I'd still break it
I miss you even more
and I can't fake it
The way I could before
I hate you but I love you
I can't stop thinking of you
I hate you but I love you
Dont.know.what.to.do.
I'm stuck on you!"

argH!!

zenna boxed the green apple at 5:47:00 PM

i dont wanna hate you.. please dont make me...

dont do it please...

what good would it do?

met dorothy today..talked about stuff... together with shui yi..

dorothy was looking for a prom dress..

im having very bad PMS... and i mean VERY..

im feeling really unstable now...

i feel like inflicting pain on myself... penknife anyone?? wahhaha...

or can somebody slap some sense into me??

just slap me... wake me up from this FUCKING nightmare...

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck..... this sucks sucks sucks sucks sucks......

i hate myself... i wanna die. im pathetic.. im stupid. dumb. crazy.fucked up.lost.crap.
shit.assclown. u name it.. i am what ever u say...

i hate it.

F.U.C.K.

zenna boxed the green apple at 12:46:00 AM

FUCK YOU BITCH!!!

i hate u so much....

damn you..nah bey..

heartless piece of crap...

very fun right??

u get a sense of achievement by doing this yar???

arGGHHhHHhHHhHhHH....

u think the feeling of being bianged very nice is it?? no can... it sucks man.

bitCH.

zenna boxed the green apple at 12:44:00 AM

Monday, October 27, 2003

there're so many things that i wanna ask you
and even more that i wanna tell .
but its all kept up inside me,
it totally feels like hell..

Its been 37 days..
and im still stuck on you.
37 days..
and im still a fool..

zenna boxed the green apple at 4:07:00 PM

Sunday, October 26, 2003

im tired today...

havent been sleeping well.. cant.

zenna boxed the green apple at 10:08:00 PM

im so into 'pretty giRL' by Jon B right now.. the lyrics.. hmm.. its.....n.i.c.e... =)

an example:

"There's a candle that's burning in my heart tonight
And the flame is full of my desire
And I can't help but desire you in my bed tonight
And I'll touch you in the places
Where no one's been before
And I'll kiss you in the places
Where men sometimes ignore
And I'll take you to a level
You've never felt before
And though you won't understand it
You'll cry and ask for more"

zenna boxed the green apple at 1:51:00 AM

un-avoidable stuff/ people that just keeps remiNdinG me of U..

1. ALL the songs you've sent me and ive sent you
2. Tanah Merah MRT station
3. When the stupid train goes pass YOUR block..
4. BLK 85
5. Couples
6. Scoccer
7. Dogs
8. Tampines interchange
9. the seat facing swensens
10. Orchard
11. the koi pond
12. hotels
13. karaoke
14. your messages
15. monks
16. East Coast
17. the 69 bus stop
18. fridays after 6pm
19. movies
20. skirts
21. my ass
22. FBT shorts
23. Blue by ralph lauren
24. Man U T shirts (everybody seems to be wearing them!!)
25. Gui ling Gao
26. CHIMES
27. Spaghetti
28. Holland V
29. The overhead bridge from simei to tampines
30. the simei park
31. simei Starbucks
32. Heeren Spinelli's
33. pavillion
34. the Playground near su an's place
35. jillene's vespa
36. Geylang
37. Siglap
38. front hooked bras
39. Gelare
40. Bedok Mac
41. Zac
42. my bed.

zenna boxed the green apple at 1:04:00 AM

was jillene's B'DAY yesterday...

jillene's mum booked us a hotel in orchard ... shes so nice... the hotel's so cool too!! its big and comfy..

we went monks!!! yep!!! it was fun... we were all LANCINg.. haha... yup..but i was a little tired cause of work... yep.. but over all.. it was fun... met up with carol and janice too...

rhe songs that they plyed were all the same~~ even the sequence of the songs were similar to the time when we went there!! haha... kinda boring lar... but... it was okae... i had fun..

not alot of people were L-ancing though.. think was because of the music..

we stayed there till 3.. then took a cab back to the hotel.. was tired.. took a bath and knocked out.. haha...

i wanna go again!!! i wanna L-ance!!! :)

zenna boxed the green apple at 12:40:00 AM